May 9: May 1st I determined I was 4 weeks pregnant. My due date Jan 8 which made me nervous so close to christmas and new years - and my boys birthdays fall on the 25 and the 2nd as it is lol. It look me about 4-5 days to get excited about the prospect of a new years baby :-D
On my 5 week mark (yesterday may 8) i started spotting in the morning which got more and more period like as the day went on, and by evening i was bleeding heavily and by evening I was starting to feel pain. Im an experienced miscarriager and this was different this time. My abdomin was in pain! Not cramps per say but terribly achy pain. I loaded up on tylenol and forced myself to sleep (fully prepared to rush to ER if the pain turned stabbing because that was what happened with my tubal - I only have one tube left, i'm not willing to mess around with it). Also, last half of yesterday i really felt emotional - it was like my body knew what i was losing on an emotional level and was mourning despite my actually knowing on a medical front yet. After a good cry when I had time to be alone I felt alot better...not pain wise tho, lol just emotionally.
Anyways, I have an ultrasound booked next wednesday to see either if this baby made it - as I have had quite a history as far as pregnancies have gone...but i dont feel as tho this pregnancy will make it. In one breath im relieved because we werent ready to start for another few months, however at the same time in that short week I had reset my thinking and was ready for our next addition (I adapt to things fairly quickly).
Next week will tell now the official fate of baby - i wont post this until after the u/s.
May 15: I already knew the fate, especially after the blood reader on Tuesday because my uterus did not show up on the dry blood analysis, but anyways, definite miscarriage. Now i'm supposed to get some blood tests done to see if I have hormone changes which is the only way to determine a tubal - mostly precautionary measures. They want a follow up ultrasound too which i'm surprised - they didn't say there was any concerns so i'm not sure why a followup? She said there was some fluid still but I don't know what that means.
Whatever the case, i'm officially not pregnant :)
