As you know I have been doing a program with Michael called "Rushfit" (blogged previously about it). It has been fun and a GREAT workout! I have added strength and endurance and flexibility, which is wonderful and despite the tone of the blog to follow, I am grateful for.
I did a cleanse - the Wild Rose Cleanse a few weeks ago and it was close to the time that I started RushFit. By week 3 (we got our weeks mixed up and weighed/measured early) I was down 4lbs and 4" - VERY exciting right? Absolutely!
Within the first week of finishing the cleanse I gained all 4lbs +1 BACK. I hadn't changed anything! I am still wheat/flour/sugar free because I seem to have an intolerance, etc so I basically continued my regular eating and am still working out 6 days a week. So the past 3 days have been a really big hardship on me...when depressed (especially ABOUT food) I just want to eat everything in sight. I have mostly managed to stay within my 1600 MAX calorie range, but have had some terrible food choices in there - whihc in turn makes me feel emotionally worse! Vicious cycle right?
I am frusterated with my body and I am frusterated when it just doesn't make sense! I can't eliminate any more food because I am already on avg eating only 1400 cals per day...and I can't exercise MORE because an hour a day is already hard to squeeze in with my schedule and my family.
Michael has lost 15-20lbs and is looking great. I know I can't/shouldn't compare, but to watch him to the same program and same food plan and get results is terrible disheartening. He also has willpower. I'm not sure how he does it - well I do konw, he doesn't have my intense need and desire to eat food. I sometimes with people could just spend a day in my head and really understand how much I think about food, and how hungry I feel ALL the time, every day, day in and day out. You'd think I'd be an enormous whale if you really knew! Well, I was close LOL but the willpower I have is not enough I guess - that is just the sad part for me.
Anyways, I will not give up - I am not even trying to change my body type...I -know- that I will always carry my weight in my hips/buttock, and I know I will always be pear shaped....I just want to be toned up and firm, not giggly and be able to grab a handful of excess in those regions - I don't think that's too much to ask! I've been doing squats and lunges basically on a daily basis (it's in every workout, some more than others) and I just dont' feel any different. In fact, the other day before the cleanse was finished I tried on my skinny pants and I was actually able to do them up! I haven't done that since I used to wear them pre-Carter - that was SOOO exciting! But now I can't do them up again...in a week and a half - and for no -obvious to me- reason.
Okay, i'm done. VENTVENTVENT. SADSADSAD.
Return to my initial comment. I -am- however grateful for the increase in my physical fitness level. I hope that one day my body and mind will cooperate and help me reach my goal.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Saturday, January 26, 2013
new plan
In true "Kyla" fashion, I have new ideas, new focus and new dreams! LOL
As of recent Michael and I have found ourselves in a bit of a financial crunch, slipping down a slippery slope. In order to correct this we have readdressed our situation and created a new strict budget and hope to be debt free in 2-3 years. It is going to be hard and it's going to be difficult and i'm going to struggle around those times of year (summer, birthdays and christmas) when I only have "x" number of dollars to work with, but i'm bound and determined. (We are doing the cash envelopes)
There is a course I want to take via homestudy through the Canadian School of Natural Nutrition. It's an intensive 1100 hour diploma program, which I would like to take as pre-req knowledge for doing the Live Blood Analysis program. Yup, I am going down that road! However, the incentive is that if I reach debt free status, I then can start saving for the course fee (approx $3000) - by the time that comes I will be hopefully in a space where we are out of new baby phase and I can actually venture down the road of more education and learning :)
On another note, Bowen is going well - I have about 5 clients a week - would like to have 8-10 now as my new clientel goal. I think Bowen & Blood (for abbrev purposes) would go nicely together.
Random note: Michael received a call from WCB - they said they've been trying to send us a settlement cheque and it has been returned due to incorrect address - he was in a fender bender (not his fault) about 2 years ago...i'm hoping it's enough to cover the cost ofa new garborator! Ours keeps backing up into our dishwasher which in turn backs up in the garborator but I just don't have the funds to replace it...so i'm not hand washing dishes in my really inconveniently set up sink area. Should be in the mail this week! Wish us luck.
Oh! Where did the blood reading interest come from? Well, it has ALWAYS interested me (i've mentioned it in many posts before) but the cost seemed too great - and was too great - and I just didn't know where to start. As of a few months ago I have been hosting a blood clinic for a lady who reads blood, out of my home, and it's been so much fun and so fascinating! And SOOO much interest! I actually have a wait list believe it or not for people to get in. So, now tha ti'm using it as a debt free incentive I am just excited - excited to be debt free and exciting to learn more! I love natural health and I love helping people - I just am giddy :)
As of recent Michael and I have found ourselves in a bit of a financial crunch, slipping down a slippery slope. In order to correct this we have readdressed our situation and created a new strict budget and hope to be debt free in 2-3 years. It is going to be hard and it's going to be difficult and i'm going to struggle around those times of year (summer, birthdays and christmas) when I only have "x" number of dollars to work with, but i'm bound and determined. (We are doing the cash envelopes)
There is a course I want to take via homestudy through the Canadian School of Natural Nutrition. It's an intensive 1100 hour diploma program, which I would like to take as pre-req knowledge for doing the Live Blood Analysis program. Yup, I am going down that road! However, the incentive is that if I reach debt free status, I then can start saving for the course fee (approx $3000) - by the time that comes I will be hopefully in a space where we are out of new baby phase and I can actually venture down the road of more education and learning :)
On another note, Bowen is going well - I have about 5 clients a week - would like to have 8-10 now as my new clientel goal. I think Bowen & Blood (for abbrev purposes) would go nicely together.
Random note: Michael received a call from WCB - they said they've been trying to send us a settlement cheque and it has been returned due to incorrect address - he was in a fender bender (not his fault) about 2 years ago...i'm hoping it's enough to cover the cost ofa new garborator! Ours keeps backing up into our dishwasher which in turn backs up in the garborator but I just don't have the funds to replace it...so i'm not hand washing dishes in my really inconveniently set up sink area. Should be in the mail this week! Wish us luck.
Oh! Where did the blood reading interest come from? Well, it has ALWAYS interested me (i've mentioned it in many posts before) but the cost seemed too great - and was too great - and I just didn't know where to start. As of a few months ago I have been hosting a blood clinic for a lady who reads blood, out of my home, and it's been so much fun and so fascinating! And SOOO much interest! I actually have a wait list believe it or not for people to get in. So, now tha ti'm using it as a debt free incentive I am just excited - excited to be debt free and exciting to learn more! I love natural health and I love helping people - I just am giddy :)
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Rushfit
So this is the program Michael and I are doing right now: http://www.gsprushfit.com/
Basically it's MMA fitness training in a video workout format. It's an 8 week training session, where you workout 6 days and rest 1. The workouts are 1 hour long and some days you are required to an additional 30 minutes of cardio. The workouts are bootcamp intense and there's a handful of things I just am not physically capable of doing - nor do I feel the need to be able to LOL.
Today I just did day 8 and today was the first day since after day 1 that I wasn't in pain in all my muscles!! lol..
A big thing i've noticed is that I am even more than normal thinking about food and am constantly HUNGRY. As i've blogged before, food and I have a weird relationship, and I rarely feel 'full' - if I feel full, it only lasts 30-60 minutes before I could eat an entire meal again. I have learned and taught myself to just eat three meals a day with a small snack when necessary...but this fitness regime is really challenging my psyche (sy-kee) <--how do you sell that?). Anyways, i've got myself on a 1550 daily calorie intake - but now I am sitting around 1800 by days end cuz of the major food cravings.
I keep reminding myself i'm burning alot of calories and there's no way after 8 weeks of this intense training that there will be NO change in my body, even if I'm eating a little bit more. HOWEVER on the same coin i'm still trying to win this mind-body battle because when i'm not working out, I need to be able to eat only 1500 or i'll gain everything back too fast.
Sigh, stupid body LOL
Other than that little 'complaint' i am absolutely LOVING this program! It's the perfect intensity and it's FUN - totally up my alley as far as fitness activity goes.
On another note - I'm still boxing once a week at Spray Lakes just to make our membership worthwhile, and we signed Logan up for "Little Dragons" which is Kick-Jitzu for 4-6 yr olds. He is actually VERY excited about it - he can't wait to box like mommy, and daddy is excited because he loves UFC! Logan's class is two days a week for the next two months, for 50 minutes! I hope he loves it :)
Basically it's MMA fitness training in a video workout format. It's an 8 week training session, where you workout 6 days and rest 1. The workouts are 1 hour long and some days you are required to an additional 30 minutes of cardio. The workouts are bootcamp intense and there's a handful of things I just am not physically capable of doing - nor do I feel the need to be able to LOL.
Today I just did day 8 and today was the first day since after day 1 that I wasn't in pain in all my muscles!! lol..
A big thing i've noticed is that I am even more than normal thinking about food and am constantly HUNGRY. As i've blogged before, food and I have a weird relationship, and I rarely feel 'full' - if I feel full, it only lasts 30-60 minutes before I could eat an entire meal again. I have learned and taught myself to just eat three meals a day with a small snack when necessary...but this fitness regime is really challenging my psyche (sy-kee) <--how do you sell that?). Anyways, i've got myself on a 1550 daily calorie intake - but now I am sitting around 1800 by days end cuz of the major food cravings.
I keep reminding myself i'm burning alot of calories and there's no way after 8 weeks of this intense training that there will be NO change in my body, even if I'm eating a little bit more. HOWEVER on the same coin i'm still trying to win this mind-body battle because when i'm not working out, I need to be able to eat only 1500 or i'll gain everything back too fast.
Sigh, stupid body LOL
Other than that little 'complaint' i am absolutely LOVING this program! It's the perfect intensity and it's FUN - totally up my alley as far as fitness activity goes.
On another note - I'm still boxing once a week at Spray Lakes just to make our membership worthwhile, and we signed Logan up for "Little Dragons" which is Kick-Jitzu for 4-6 yr olds. He is actually VERY excited about it - he can't wait to box like mommy, and daddy is excited because he loves UFC! Logan's class is two days a week for the next two months, for 50 minutes! I hope he loves it :)
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