So that dreaded moment when you put on your 'fat pants' (or in my case, capris) and they are a nice fit. Sad. Sad. SAD! I can feel the weight starting to go to my lower body now, and I still can't get back into my happiest eating routine! What's taht about anyways? I know - broken record complaints from me. My blog tho :) I'm allowed.
Anyways, just a sad time...I know what I need to do and know what works for me but still can't get there. I thankfully reached a high point and haven't passed it yet - been able to maintain that high point. I have picked up working out, but still not to the level of consistency. There are NO bootcamps in town that arne't in a gym and highly outrageously priced...I prefer private, outdoor bootcamps - but no such luck.
but really, reality is I need to stop eating so much. I tracked my food intake yesterday, and when I track I tend to be able to resist those litte 'extra' snacks, and it was a 1500 calorie day! I should be at 12-1300cals. So somehow I have to keep those 'extras' at bay AND cut out approx 300 cals. Not an easy task.
I hate it when people say "well I'll start working out when..." but i'm going to do it anyways! Come September I have scheduled in more fitness classes - the reason I can't now is that the gym is in summer mode (half the classes available), so there's way more selection of classes and times starting in Sept. I AM tho working out on Tuesdays (boxing) and the occasional extra day in the week, and am slowly but not consistantly wrking out in my basement once a week (hopefully pick up to 2-3 times). New goal: go from my present 147 (yuck) down to 125. That's 22lbs! AH, goal used to be only 10-12. Can I do it? With will power...do I have that? no! :D
SIGH. I hate this battle. If only this last pregnancy hadn't been so difficult....yes that's a poor excuse but again - my blog. :)
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Friday, August 17, 2012
sleep complaints
Apology at the beginning for the negative tone this blog might contain - I am just in need of a good venting!
Logan has never been a fabulous sleeper, and then in the past year we've had some really good nights and really good stretches with him, but regardless how long or how many of those 'good stretches' he has, he ALWAYS reverts back to being a really cruddy sleeper! Logan's bedtime routine is one of which he goes to bed at 7/7:30 and doesn't get up in the morning most of the time until 7 or 8am. Awesome right? Generally...|(maybe?)
Here's what happened last night: He went to bed at 7 per usual, then he woke up at 10, 1, 3, and got up at 5. Michael and I have an arrangment where he takes care of Logan and I get Carter. Michael and I have just within the past 3-4 months been able to sleep in the same room and same bed as each other since Carter's arrival - a really big deal! I have blogged about Logan before, he is the type that LIKES having another person in the room and/or bed with him. He has been like that since birth. When he wakes up at night he 50-50 as per his attitude. Half of the time he is sleep walking i'm pretty sure. How do I know? well we have followed him all the way down the stairs, watched him walk into the kitchen then turn around and head back upstairs. At some point he generally comes 'out of it' a little and then we help him back to his room. So when he is in that state we will usually just redirect him and tuck him back in and he doesn't even seem to comprehend what is happening. Other times he wakes up to pee, and other times he wakes up for a drink of water. That's 50% of the time. The other 50% of the time when he wakes he is just a monster! I say monster without knowing what other word to use. He just wakes up and just cries and cries and cries for NO reason. He is moody and emotional and upset and mad and there's nothing we can do for him that's right - we try and help, he gets more upset, we don't try and help, he gets even more upset. It's a lose-lose and it's INCREDIBLY frusterating! That happens almost EVERY night at least once. The only way we don't see this monster behavior is on nights Michael sleeps with him. Those nights he will sleep right through with only potty wake ups. Then he will throw us 1-3 nights of all the way through the night with no wake ups whatsoever without michael in his room. Its just exhausting really because it makes Michael grumpy everytime he has to wake up and it makes him grumpy because he hasnt had a good nights sleep.
Then theres Carter! He generally wakes up still once a night with a give-or-take 7pm bedtime also, and up at 6. I am desperatly wanting him to stop nursing but I am unsure how to ween him. Logan basically weened himself and by this time he was actually done. Logan just adapted to a bottle, but Carter cant have bottles - he just chews the nipples to pieces (you can imagine why I want to stop nursing huh). But really, he is 1 in 2 weeks and doesnt need to be waking at all anymore unless in distress. however, that being said, I can handle one nightime wake up, Carters problems are presently in the daytime. He is going through this hugely clingy, hugely whiny phase and that is just exhausting! I cant put him down ever and if he does he just cries and cries and cries and tugs at my legs until I pick him up...or I have to be on the floor with him (and as longas the timing is right he will play) - this is his behavior at least 50% of the time he is awake in a day.
BUT on top of it all, for SOME reason I am just unable to sleep at night! I toss and turn and toss and turn. I try and relax and my back starts to hurt, or something starts to ache, or my mystery itch (yup, still part of my life) flares up, or one of the boys wakes up, or my pillows are too firm or too fluffy or Im too hot or too cold. Its beyond ridiculous! I just dont even know where to begin!
Okay, i think thats enough venting for the day :)
Signed,
One tired momma!
Logan has never been a fabulous sleeper, and then in the past year we've had some really good nights and really good stretches with him, but regardless how long or how many of those 'good stretches' he has, he ALWAYS reverts back to being a really cruddy sleeper! Logan's bedtime routine is one of which he goes to bed at 7/7:30 and doesn't get up in the morning most of the time until 7 or 8am. Awesome right? Generally...|(maybe?)
Here's what happened last night: He went to bed at 7 per usual, then he woke up at 10, 1, 3, and got up at 5. Michael and I have an arrangment where he takes care of Logan and I get Carter. Michael and I have just within the past 3-4 months been able to sleep in the same room and same bed as each other since Carter's arrival - a really big deal! I have blogged about Logan before, he is the type that LIKES having another person in the room and/or bed with him. He has been like that since birth. When he wakes up at night he 50-50 as per his attitude. Half of the time he is sleep walking i'm pretty sure. How do I know? well we have followed him all the way down the stairs, watched him walk into the kitchen then turn around and head back upstairs. At some point he generally comes 'out of it' a little and then we help him back to his room. So when he is in that state we will usually just redirect him and tuck him back in and he doesn't even seem to comprehend what is happening. Other times he wakes up to pee, and other times he wakes up for a drink of water. That's 50% of the time. The other 50% of the time when he wakes he is just a monster! I say monster without knowing what other word to use. He just wakes up and just cries and cries and cries for NO reason. He is moody and emotional and upset and mad and there's nothing we can do for him that's right - we try and help, he gets more upset, we don't try and help, he gets even more upset. It's a lose-lose and it's INCREDIBLY frusterating! That happens almost EVERY night at least once. The only way we don't see this monster behavior is on nights Michael sleeps with him. Those nights he will sleep right through with only potty wake ups. Then he will throw us 1-3 nights of all the way through the night with no wake ups whatsoever without michael in his room. Its just exhausting really because it makes Michael grumpy everytime he has to wake up and it makes him grumpy because he hasnt had a good nights sleep.
Then theres Carter! He generally wakes up still once a night with a give-or-take 7pm bedtime also, and up at 6. I am desperatly wanting him to stop nursing but I am unsure how to ween him. Logan basically weened himself and by this time he was actually done. Logan just adapted to a bottle, but Carter cant have bottles - he just chews the nipples to pieces (you can imagine why I want to stop nursing huh). But really, he is 1 in 2 weeks and doesnt need to be waking at all anymore unless in distress. however, that being said, I can handle one nightime wake up, Carters problems are presently in the daytime. He is going through this hugely clingy, hugely whiny phase and that is just exhausting! I cant put him down ever and if he does he just cries and cries and cries and tugs at my legs until I pick him up...or I have to be on the floor with him (and as longas the timing is right he will play) - this is his behavior at least 50% of the time he is awake in a day.
BUT on top of it all, for SOME reason I am just unable to sleep at night! I toss and turn and toss and turn. I try and relax and my back starts to hurt, or something starts to ache, or my mystery itch (yup, still part of my life) flares up, or one of the boys wakes up, or my pillows are too firm or too fluffy or Im too hot or too cold. Its beyond ridiculous! I just dont even know where to begin!
Okay, i think thats enough venting for the day :)
Signed,
One tired momma!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Catch up blog - some TMI details, be warned
okay, so much to say, so little time!
1. Family Reunion long weekend was a total blast!
2. Logan and Carter took time adapting back into schedule after it...then logan ended up with a cold aout 4-5 days later
3. I picked up a cold, which then led (or is completely unconnected) to an infection on my ermm..boob. yup, at first i thought I had a plugged duct or mastitus, but it was a topical infection which meant I couldn't nurse as it was right in the...suck zone? (lol) It was excruciating. So I got an antibiotic, and 24 hours later I managed to break the infection (physically) and another 12 hours Carter was nursing on that side again. However it still is pretty tender. In the meantime I did get a plugged duct (which I thought the engorged feeling was part of the infection but end of the 12 hours and a few pumps and then carter nursing I realized one of my glands was NOT releasing milk. I got into the shower, massaged it and fiddled around in the...area...lol and unplugged the duct and sat for what felt like forever while it emptied. Wow - so much relief from something so small! The body is fascinating!
4. in the process of trying to figure out what activites to put Logan in, and what not to. The million dollar debate! I think I've finally chosen the MYC (Music forYoung Children) and Skating lessons. Then in the winter (January) I think I'll enroll Logan in Playball (a program that teaches generic catching, bouncing, hitting, throwing, passing, etc with about 6-8 different sports).
5. facebook made me do timeline. I really find it confusing and annoying. Oh well, i'll adjust, just wanted to complain a bit :)
6. Haven't lost weight, havehighs and lows if I'll EVER get control over my eating.
7. Went to my first counsellin session with alberta health services (key word: free). It was basically a 'get to know you' session, and I enjoyed the guy, didn't make me feel like I was talking to a therapist too badly (sometimes he'd say 'and how dd that make you feel' lol and that just made me laugh inside). It felt good to make some goals. Sadly when I finally went to see him I was having a really good 7-10 days so I almost didn't want to go and dig up all the bad stuff lol but it didn't bring me down by any means so that's good
That's all for now! Kids are waking from naps/emerging from basement!
8. changed my mind about my back patio - going to lay stamped/colored concrete I think! Still working on details but i'm excited about the decision
1. Family Reunion long weekend was a total blast!
2. Logan and Carter took time adapting back into schedule after it...then logan ended up with a cold aout 4-5 days later
3. I picked up a cold, which then led (or is completely unconnected) to an infection on my ermm..boob. yup, at first i thought I had a plugged duct or mastitus, but it was a topical infection which meant I couldn't nurse as it was right in the...suck zone? (lol) It was excruciating. So I got an antibiotic, and 24 hours later I managed to break the infection (physically) and another 12 hours Carter was nursing on that side again. However it still is pretty tender. In the meantime I did get a plugged duct (which I thought the engorged feeling was part of the infection but end of the 12 hours and a few pumps and then carter nursing I realized one of my glands was NOT releasing milk. I got into the shower, massaged it and fiddled around in the...area...lol and unplugged the duct and sat for what felt like forever while it emptied. Wow - so much relief from something so small! The body is fascinating!
4. in the process of trying to figure out what activites to put Logan in, and what not to. The million dollar debate! I think I've finally chosen the MYC (Music forYoung Children) and Skating lessons. Then in the winter (January) I think I'll enroll Logan in Playball (a program that teaches generic catching, bouncing, hitting, throwing, passing, etc with about 6-8 different sports).
5. facebook made me do timeline. I really find it confusing and annoying. Oh well, i'll adjust, just wanted to complain a bit :)
6. Haven't lost weight, havehighs and lows if I'll EVER get control over my eating.
7. Went to my first counsellin session with alberta health services (key word: free). It was basically a 'get to know you' session, and I enjoyed the guy, didn't make me feel like I was talking to a therapist too badly (sometimes he'd say 'and how dd that make you feel' lol and that just made me laugh inside). It felt good to make some goals. Sadly when I finally went to see him I was having a really good 7-10 days so I almost didn't want to go and dig up all the bad stuff lol but it didn't bring me down by any means so that's good
That's all for now! Kids are waking from naps/emerging from basement!
8. changed my mind about my back patio - going to lay stamped/colored concrete I think! Still working on details but i'm excited about the decision
Sunday, July 22, 2012
My Bowen experience
So yesterday afternoon I went and received some Bowen - my major complaint is I have had some serious back pain in the kidney region of my back and it's been waking me/keeping me up at night, so I figured it was high time to go in. I also know that I have been harboring some anger within my body, which I without a doubt think contributed to my back pain. (Kidneys 'hold' anger, and other emotions). I told her this before hand because I knew it would come up during my session lol, basically I warned her that if I tear up it's cuz I have some emotions needing to be let go.
Anyways, my friend and collegue agreed to do a Bowen trade. I will admit I feel like I got the better end of the deal because she has her module 8 and specialized 9 while I recieved my 7 and had to put my learning on hold (baby & finances). She also has taken something called Mind-body Bowen. I cannot WAIT to learn this! she did mind-body on me.
Let me tell you, I felt things. I felt things swirling and whirling within my body, each and every move she made. I felt major pain in many of the moves that I do on others. She used a deeper technique then I'm used to and I almost cried from the pain of the depth! however, I breathed through it. Then she did a SP1 (mod 9) move on me around the scap and rhomboids...I almost started hyperventalating, then within 30 seconds after the move the tears started flowing! I was BAWLING, uncontrollable, full on, crying my eyes out, heaving with breath. holy cow... she grabbed me some tissue and sat next to the table and talked me through it. Took about 5-10 mins to let it all 'out' and then I felt like a weight had been lifted from my body. Literlaly. the moves prior to the one that brought me to tears I had expressed that I felt like my whole body was being pressed down into the massage table and I felt like a lead weight.
After I let it all out, I felt so light! And she did one more move on my kidneys, then we ended the session there. I actually felt repulsed by the idea of her doing even one more movement on my body - I was VERY done.
Today (the next day), I can make note that my back doesn't hurt -quite- as bad through the night but it's still not gone. however, Bowen can take up to 10 days to sink in, and I do still have some emotions to work through before I can probably say good bye to the physical pain. But as far as the anger goes, I felt like I had some good grip on things today. Things that would have sent me into a feeling of fury on the inside (and occasionally the outside) I felt like I could handle them.
That was my experiene :)
Anyways, my friend and collegue agreed to do a Bowen trade. I will admit I feel like I got the better end of the deal because she has her module 8 and specialized 9 while I recieved my 7 and had to put my learning on hold (baby & finances). She also has taken something called Mind-body Bowen. I cannot WAIT to learn this! she did mind-body on me.
Let me tell you, I felt things. I felt things swirling and whirling within my body, each and every move she made. I felt major pain in many of the moves that I do on others. She used a deeper technique then I'm used to and I almost cried from the pain of the depth! however, I breathed through it. Then she did a SP1 (mod 9) move on me around the scap and rhomboids...I almost started hyperventalating, then within 30 seconds after the move the tears started flowing! I was BAWLING, uncontrollable, full on, crying my eyes out, heaving with breath. holy cow... she grabbed me some tissue and sat next to the table and talked me through it. Took about 5-10 mins to let it all 'out' and then I felt like a weight had been lifted from my body. Literlaly. the moves prior to the one that brought me to tears I had expressed that I felt like my whole body was being pressed down into the massage table and I felt like a lead weight.
After I let it all out, I felt so light! And she did one more move on my kidneys, then we ended the session there. I actually felt repulsed by the idea of her doing even one more movement on my body - I was VERY done.
Today (the next day), I can make note that my back doesn't hurt -quite- as bad through the night but it's still not gone. however, Bowen can take up to 10 days to sink in, and I do still have some emotions to work through before I can probably say good bye to the physical pain. But as far as the anger goes, I felt like I had some good grip on things today. Things that would have sent me into a feeling of fury on the inside (and occasionally the outside) I felt like I could handle them.
That was my experiene :)
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Bowen
I did it, I ordered ONE THOUSAND flyers...well, postcards lol as they were half the price, and I plan to deliver half of them end of August, and the other half end of October (maybe i'll give them out in the halloween bags? LOL jk).
Michael and I are in a phase of life where with this new house purchase we are in the 'living from paycheque to paycheque' phase. Yes, I am putting away money each paycheque, but certainly not as much as I'd like, and i'm CERTAINLY not happy with our debt load (aka: my mastercard) presently, so I have decided to do something about it. Basically the plan is to give up all my little jobs (newspapers, my tentative fall piano students, and babysitting) in order to focus on my passion: Bowen. Idealy I would like to have regularly 4-6 clients per week, all in 2-3 days. That way I can take Logan to his various Fall activities I have signed up for (and plan to sign up for) AND still have time for my kids.
Wish me luck!
Michael and I are in a phase of life where with this new house purchase we are in the 'living from paycheque to paycheque' phase. Yes, I am putting away money each paycheque, but certainly not as much as I'd like, and i'm CERTAINLY not happy with our debt load (aka: my mastercard) presently, so I have decided to do something about it. Basically the plan is to give up all my little jobs (newspapers, my tentative fall piano students, and babysitting) in order to focus on my passion: Bowen. Idealy I would like to have regularly 4-6 clients per week, all in 2-3 days. That way I can take Logan to his various Fall activities I have signed up for (and plan to sign up for) AND still have time for my kids.
Wish me luck!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Tina & Aaron's wedding day
My friend Tina from highschool got married yesterday and I had the pleasure of being a part of her wedding party. The plan was to take Carter and my mom and just deal with cranky Carter (who hates travelling and didn't have anywhere to nap, etc etc) so that I could nurse him the 2-3 times a day he still nurses. (nap times and bedtime specifically). Last minute (the night before) we decided my mom would just come to my house and watch Carter. I had my friend Mindy agree to come over at bedtime IF he was hysterical and in need of nursing, and nurse him for me (she has a baby boy a month older than Carter)...I'll tell you I felt odd asking but she's one person I knew would do it - and vice versa actually. Anyways, it didn't come to that but I just wanted the back up JUST in case.
So, I left at 8:30am and arrived at Tina's for hair-dos at 10. We got all dolled up and headed to the hotel to do some final set up and readying. The ceremony was at 3pm where I had the honor of witnessing and signing for their marriage. The wedding party was two girls and two guys - all of us married or engaged, which was really nice as it took the "single" edge of the day and we could all just have a good time and laugh and joke and "flirt" in a non threatening way without any intentions or hidden agendas! After ceremony we hopped in a limo (one of those truck style limos) and headed off to get pictures done. (funny moment: we did the jumping picture and the photographer had the wedding party hold hands and I said 'make sure you dn't tell me husband' - but to be honest, i told him as soon as I got home because it was a little awkwrd holding another mans' hand!). Finished pictures and hopped back in the limo and back to the hotel (where the reception was also being held). We got back in time for dinner which was PHENOMINAL! There was multiple salads, there was deviled eggs, there was fruit and veggie platters, meat and cheese platters, cabbage rolls, roasted chicken, roast beef, potatoe wedges (baked i think), cooked veggies...it was a great spread! After dinner we mingled and such until speeches, garter tosses, cake cutting, first dances, etc. I stayed and danced a couple songs (which I haven't done in YEARS) and then left by 9 so I could get home at a decent hour.
I love love LOVED attending this wedding for many reasons. 1. It was great to see and catch up with old friends. 2. There was minimal alcohol consumption all around - a few beers or drinks floating around but all in all I don't think anyone got 'drunk' (at least when I left at 9 no one was LOL), 3. I got a day out all by myself! I have not had a day out in probably 3 years that was an ENTIRE day out (left home at 830am, arrived home 1030pm) that wasn't an 8 hour class or workshop (where i would promptly rush home to rescue whomever was watching my kids). I tell you, I had such a fantastic time! I didn't know a soul there other than the bride, other bridesmaid and Tina's immediate family but that was okay! It was still a blast. Everything was calm and relaxed and smooth sailing.
The bridesmaid dress: So I wore a baby pink dress, knee length with an added cap sleeve for modesty sake with silver open toed heels. (funny side note: I told Delaney (other bridesmaid) that I bought silver heels for the wedding, and she ended up getting the same shoes not knowing where I had gotten mine!). With hair and make up I felt super cute! I haven't seen the pictures yet which might show otherwise, but I felt like I 'fit in' with the other two girls who are super skinny! lol. the past month I have been focusing on just accepting me for me and loving me for me, something I had slipped away from the past few months, and one worry i had was being the 'big bridesmaid' at this wedding because I have bigger arms and legs than both other girls and am shorter then both also. Anyways, that wasn't the case, I felt equally 'checked out' and chatted with then Delaney, and I felt simply pretty all night long! It was just a perfect evening.
Tina: she looked absolutely STUNNING! She was elegent and gorgeous. she surprised me how calm and collected she was and how well she spoke in front of everyone and I have never seen her with Aaron before longer than 5 minutes, and I just knew that they were meant to be with how they acted and cared for each other all evening. Tina is unique in the sense that she is 28years old and before Aaron she never exclusively dated anyone else or slept with anyone else, etc. She was waiting for her future companion - whom she found 2.5 years ago and i'm so happy for her!
by the end of the evening I was very tired and ready to go home. I know I said how much I loved being away for a day and having fun, but I desperately missed my boys!! All day I was checking my phone waiting to hear something from michael or my mom but never got a msg, and by days end I just wanted to snuggle Logan and/or Carter and just be with them. so I rushed home and even tho I didn't see them, I felt better being near. :)
It was a great day and I cannot wait until the pictures are ready!! I'll post at a later date.
So, I left at 8:30am and arrived at Tina's for hair-dos at 10. We got all dolled up and headed to the hotel to do some final set up and readying. The ceremony was at 3pm where I had the honor of witnessing and signing for their marriage. The wedding party was two girls and two guys - all of us married or engaged, which was really nice as it took the "single" edge of the day and we could all just have a good time and laugh and joke and "flirt" in a non threatening way without any intentions or hidden agendas! After ceremony we hopped in a limo (one of those truck style limos) and headed off to get pictures done. (funny moment: we did the jumping picture and the photographer had the wedding party hold hands and I said 'make sure you dn't tell me husband' - but to be honest, i told him as soon as I got home because it was a little awkwrd holding another mans' hand!). Finished pictures and hopped back in the limo and back to the hotel (where the reception was also being held). We got back in time for dinner which was PHENOMINAL! There was multiple salads, there was deviled eggs, there was fruit and veggie platters, meat and cheese platters, cabbage rolls, roasted chicken, roast beef, potatoe wedges (baked i think), cooked veggies...it was a great spread! After dinner we mingled and such until speeches, garter tosses, cake cutting, first dances, etc. I stayed and danced a couple songs (which I haven't done in YEARS) and then left by 9 so I could get home at a decent hour.
I love love LOVED attending this wedding for many reasons. 1. It was great to see and catch up with old friends. 2. There was minimal alcohol consumption all around - a few beers or drinks floating around but all in all I don't think anyone got 'drunk' (at least when I left at 9 no one was LOL), 3. I got a day out all by myself! I have not had a day out in probably 3 years that was an ENTIRE day out (left home at 830am, arrived home 1030pm) that wasn't an 8 hour class or workshop (where i would promptly rush home to rescue whomever was watching my kids). I tell you, I had such a fantastic time! I didn't know a soul there other than the bride, other bridesmaid and Tina's immediate family but that was okay! It was still a blast. Everything was calm and relaxed and smooth sailing.
The bridesmaid dress: So I wore a baby pink dress, knee length with an added cap sleeve for modesty sake with silver open toed heels. (funny side note: I told Delaney (other bridesmaid) that I bought silver heels for the wedding, and she ended up getting the same shoes not knowing where I had gotten mine!). With hair and make up I felt super cute! I haven't seen the pictures yet which might show otherwise, but I felt like I 'fit in' with the other two girls who are super skinny! lol. the past month I have been focusing on just accepting me for me and loving me for me, something I had slipped away from the past few months, and one worry i had was being the 'big bridesmaid' at this wedding because I have bigger arms and legs than both other girls and am shorter then both also. Anyways, that wasn't the case, I felt equally 'checked out' and chatted with then Delaney, and I felt simply pretty all night long! It was just a perfect evening.
Tina: she looked absolutely STUNNING! She was elegent and gorgeous. she surprised me how calm and collected she was and how well she spoke in front of everyone and I have never seen her with Aaron before longer than 5 minutes, and I just knew that they were meant to be with how they acted and cared for each other all evening. Tina is unique in the sense that she is 28years old and before Aaron she never exclusively dated anyone else or slept with anyone else, etc. She was waiting for her future companion - whom she found 2.5 years ago and i'm so happy for her!
by the end of the evening I was very tired and ready to go home. I know I said how much I loved being away for a day and having fun, but I desperately missed my boys!! All day I was checking my phone waiting to hear something from michael or my mom but never got a msg, and by days end I just wanted to snuggle Logan and/or Carter and just be with them. so I rushed home and even tho I didn't see them, I felt better being near. :)
It was a great day and I cannot wait until the pictures are ready!! I'll post at a later date.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Weighing & Measuring
Well it's time to get really serious. I'm hoping that by writing this down I will feel that much more committed. I used to weigh and measure my food as whomever might read this probably already knows. Over the past 10 days or so I have been really well with trying to eat well, exercise and be happy all at the same time. I feel in a really good place today and am going to take the opportunity to start what used to work amazingly well for me. So when eating "program food" (that's where I get my portions and controls from is the FA food program) a new starter basically just eats vegetables and protein for the first while until getting control over her/his food...then at that point adds rice/potatoes. People's first comment to me is "but you need carbs in your diet"...what people's biggest misconception is that a carb is not strictly breads and such and there are actually many vegetables that are considered high in carbs (like peas and corn). Anyways, i'm planing to weigh and measure all my veggies and protein, and limit myself to maximum 3 proper servings of fruit a day, aiming to only have 2. And I'm altering "program" and if I am hungry mid meals I will have either veggies or fruit as a snack. I always -want- junk food mid day, so that will be my biggest challenge is just eating a healthy snack instead.
Anyways! that's that :) I am undecide what to do about parties and events yet so we'll just come across that when the time comes. In reality I would like to say that if i'm somewhere I won't eat any sweets, but I can't guarentee that at this point as it's been a real struggle this past year for me...cold turkey giving up all sugar seems to be unatainable for me these days, but of course that would be my preference...reality is I can't just 'have one' cookie or square or piece of cake, it's none or lots. So we'll just have to cross those bridges when they come up. If I can get a handle on my daily intake of good food maybe I can feel stronger at rejecting the tasty but not-so-good food.
Anyways! that's that :) I am undecide what to do about parties and events yet so we'll just come across that when the time comes. In reality I would like to say that if i'm somewhere I won't eat any sweets, but I can't guarentee that at this point as it's been a real struggle this past year for me...cold turkey giving up all sugar seems to be unatainable for me these days, but of course that would be my preference...reality is I can't just 'have one' cookie or square or piece of cake, it's none or lots. So we'll just have to cross those bridges when they come up. If I can get a handle on my daily intake of good food maybe I can feel stronger at rejecting the tasty but not-so-good food.
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