Rushfit

So this is the program Michael and I are doing right now: http://www.gsprushfit.com/

Basically it's MMA fitness training in a video workout format. It's an 8 week training session, where you workout 6 days and rest 1. The workouts are 1 hour long and some days you are required to an additional 30 minutes of cardio. The workouts are bootcamp intense and there's a handful of things I just am not physically capable of doing - nor do I feel the need to be able to LOL.

Today I just did day 8 and today was the first day since after day 1 that I wasn't in pain in all my muscles!! lol..

A big thing i've noticed is that I am even more than normal thinking about food and am constantly HUNGRY. As i've blogged before, food and I have a weird relationship, and I rarely feel 'full' - if I feel full, it only lasts 30-60 minutes before I could eat an entire meal again. I have learned and taught myself to just eat three meals a day with a small snack when necessary...but this fitness regime is really challenging my psyche (sy-kee) <--how do you sell that?). Anyways, i've got myself on a 1550 daily calorie intake - but now I am sitting around 1800 by days end cuz of the major food cravings.

I keep reminding myself i'm burning alot of calories and there's no way after 8 weeks of this intense training that there will be NO change in my body, even if I'm eating a little bit more. HOWEVER on the same coin i'm still trying to win this mind-body battle because when i'm not working out, I need to be able to eat only 1500 or i'll gain everything back too fast.

Sigh, stupid body LOL

Other than that little 'complaint' i am absolutely LOVING this program! It's the perfect intensity and it's FUN - totally up my alley as far as fitness activity goes.

On another note - I'm still boxing once a week at Spray Lakes just to make our membership worthwhile, and we signed Logan up for "Little Dragons" which is Kick-Jitzu for 4-6 yr olds. He is actually VERY excited about it - he can't wait to box like mommy, and daddy is excited because he loves UFC! Logan's class is two days a week for the next two months, for 50 minutes! I hope he loves it :)

Information I found on Ovarian Cysts

So I came across a site that had the following information which made sense to me and 'fit' me. Per the description i'm certain I have functional cysts. I have 7-8 of the symptoms from the list and tho I didn't get an u/s this last time, I was just in the urgent care with abdominal pain a month ago and they wanted an u/s then - which didn't work out either (Cochrane REALLY needs an u/s tech! lol). Anyways, They have been found on my ovaries in past years. Enjoy educating yourself!

 

 

What are ovarian cysts?

A cyst is a fluid-filled sac. They can form anywhere in the body. Ovarian cysts (sists) form in or on the ovaries. The most common type of ovarian cyst is a functional cyst.
Functional cysts often form during the menstrual cycle. The two types are:

• Follicle cysts. These cysts form when the sac doesn't break open to release the egg. Then the sac keeps growing. This type of cyst most often goes away in 1 to 3 months.
• Corpus luteum cysts. These cysts form if the sac doesn't dissolve. Instead, the sac seals off after the egg is released. Then fluid builds up inside. Most of these cysts go away after a few weeks. They can grow to almost 4 inches. They may bleed or twist the ovary and cause pain. They are rarely cancerous. Some drugs used to cause ovulation, such as Clomid® or Serophene®, can raise the risk of getting these cysts.

Other types of ovarian cysts are:

• Endometriomas (EN-doh-MEE-tree-OH-muhs). These cysts form in women who have endometriosis (EN-doh-MEE-tree-OH-suhss). This problem occurs when tissue that looks and acts like the lining of the uterus grows outside the uterus. The tissue may attach to the ovary and form a growth. These cysts can be painful during sex and during your period.
• Cystadenomas (siss-tahd-uh-NOH-muhs). These cysts form from cells on the outer surface of the ovary. They are often filled with a watery fluid or thick, sticky gel. They can become large and cause pain.
• Dermoid (DUR-moid) cysts. These cysts contain many types of cells. They may be filled with hair, teeth, and other tissues that become part of the cyst. They can become large and cause pain.
• Polycystic (pol-ee-SISS-tik) ovaries. These cysts are caused when eggs mature within the sacs but are not released. The cycle then repeats. The sacs continue to grow and many cysts form. For more information about polycystic ovaries, see our polycystic ovary syndrome fact sheet.

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What are the symptoms of ovarian cysts?

Many ovarian cysts don't cause symptoms. Others can cause:

• Pressure, swelling, or pain in the abdomen
• Pelvic pain
• Dull ache in the lower back and thighs
• Problems passing urine completely
• Pain during sex
• Weight gain
• Pain during your period
• Abnormal bleeding
• Nausea or vomiting
• Breast tenderness

If you have these symptoms, get help right away:

• Pain with fever and vomiting
• Sudden, severe abdominal pain
• Faintness, dizziness, or weakness
• Rapid breathing

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How are ovarian cysts found?

Doctors most often find ovarian cysts during routine pelvic exams. The doctor may feel the swelling of a cyst on the ovary. Once a cyst is found, tests are done to help plan treatment. Tests include:

• An ultrasound. This test uses sound waves to create images of the body. With an ultrasound, the doctor can see the cyst's:
  • Shape
  • Size
  • Location
  • Mass — if it is fluid-filled, solid, or mixed
• A pregnancy test. This test may be given to rule out pregnancy.
• Hormone level tests. Hormone levels may be checked to see if there are hormone-related problems.
• A blood test. This test is done to find out if the cyst may be cancerous. The test measures a substance in the blood called cancer-antigen 125 (CA-125). The amount of CA-125 is higher with ovarian cancer. But some ovarian cancers don't make enough CA-125 to be detected by the test. Some noncancerous diseases also raise CA-125 levels. Those diseases include uterine fibroids (YOO-tur-ihn FEYE-broidz) and endometriosis. Noncancerous causes of higher CA-125 are more common in women younger than 35. Ovarian cancer is very rare in this age group. The CA-125 test is most often given to women who:
  • Are older than 35
  • Are at high risk for ovarian cancer
  • Have a cyst that is partly solid

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How are cysts treated?

Watchful waiting. If you have a cyst, you may be told to wait and have a second exam in 1 to 3 months. Your doctor will check to see if the cyst has changed in size. This is a common treatment option for women who:

• Are in their childbearing years
• Have no symptoms
• Have a fluid-filled cyst

It may be an option for postmenopausal women.
Surgery. Your doctor may want to remove the cyst if you are postmenopausal, or if it:

• Doesn't go away after several menstrual cycles
• Gets larger
• Looks odd on the ultrasound
• Causes pain

The two main surgeries are:

• Laparoscopy (lap-uh-ROSS-kuh-pee) – Done if the cyst is small and looks benign (noncancerous) on the ultrasound. While you are under general anesthesia, a very small cut is made above or below your navel. A small instrument that acts like a telescope is put into your abdomen. Then your doctor can remove the cyst.
• Laparotomy (lap-uh-ROT-uh-mee) – Done if the cyst is large and may be cancerous. While you are under general anesthesia, larger incisions are made in the stomach to remove the cyst. The cyst is then tested for cancer. If it is cancerous, the doctor may need to take out the ovary and other tissues, like the uterus. If only one ovary is taken out, your body is still fertile and can still produce estrogen.

Birth control pills. If you keep forming functional cysts, your doctor may prescribe birth control pills to stop you from ovulating. If you don’t ovulate, you are less likely to form new cysts. You can also use Depo-Provera®. It is a hormone that is injected into muscle. It prevents ovulation for 3 months at a time.

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Can ovarian cysts be prevented?

No, ovarian cysts cannot be prevented. The good news is that most cysts:

• Don't cause symptoms
• Are not cancerous
• Go away on their own

Talk to your doctor or nurse if you notice:

• Changes in your period
• Pain in the pelvic area
• Any of the major symptoms of cysts

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When are women most likely to have ovarian cysts?

Most functional ovarian cysts occur during childbearing years. And most of those cysts are not cancerous. Women who are past menopause (ages 50­–70) with ovarian cysts have a higher risk of ovarian cancer. At any age, if you think you have a cyst, see your doctor for a pelvic exam.

Ovarian Cyst

Well this weekend I had an ovarian cyst rupture (it must have been in a big one because it caused me to rush myself to Urgent Care). I have a history of getting these. Ex: When I had my ectopic pregnancy surgery they recorded on my form that while they were in there they ruptured a 6cm cyst on the opposite ovary. But I have always had painful periods as a child, and often will have abdominal pain, usually more managable. Doctors have told me they are extremely common, and nothing to be concerned about.

Anyways, I had flu-ish symptoms over night Friday night which I thought was linked to eating some foods that are on my 'possible intolerance' list which could still be the case, but I still also had a mild flu (upset tummy, cold chills, aches). Anyways, about noon Saturday I started to get a pain my side. It was manageable so I didn't concern myself. About 5pm I called health link to ask about it and they had me poke around the area to see if there was a specific spot (likely checking to see if it was appendicitis)...that poking and prodding aggitated it very quickly and within 20 mins I was almost buckling over on the floor.

Whenever I have abdominal pain I always get a little overly-anxious because that is how it all started with my ectopic, and being this was right sided pain, that is the side I still have a fallopian tube left on...and I have been having waves of nausia randomly over the past week - hadn't taken a test but it's -always- a possibility because we dont' use any form of protection other than tracking dates.

I called my neighbor for a ride to urgent care and when I got to the check in desk they went to take my blood pressure and I fainted into her lap! I HATE that dizzy feeling...I was most concerned though that I was going to puke in front of a room partially full of people (particularily my neighbor lol) as my nausia escalated with the dizzyness. Well, if you want to get taken back to a room quickly, pass out at the check in desk hehe.

With that they did a preg-test and blood tests, and hooked me up to an IV (I was partially dehydrated due to diarrhea and lack of eating all day)...when they confirmed it was NOT appendicitis or pregnancy then they were able to give me a pain killer and shortly after send me home. :) What a relief!

Signed,
I feel like I live at urgent care

PS. I just feel like a tenderized piece of meat today :) So definetly feeling much improved! It was a doozy of a cyst, and I would like to find out if there's anything I can do to keep them from coming on so strong or if there's any concern to the size of them I seem to be getting.

I am disgusted

Recently in our world there was some terrible, terrible news - some young children (grades K-4) and teachers were shot and killed, as i'm sure we've ALL heard. When I read the story I was apauled, but mostly saddened. I sat reading the article, crying because all I could think about were things that -could- happen now a days in this world, and the "why"'s.

I would be absolutely devastated if my child was killed in such a tragic way - whether by school shooting, or a drunk driver, etc. I am grateful for my Faith however, because I believe all of those children will be admist our Heavenly Father right now, and as cliche as it sounds "in a better place". I have been reading and reflecting the past month while reading the Ensign magazine, featuring the October conference talks. Many talks talk about death of loved ones and how to 'deal' with it, and many talks discuss repentance and forgiveness. Now, you would probably argue it's "easy" for me to forgive a man for killing people I don't know on a personal level...however, I have really had to sit and pray and ponder over it first. I am not happy or supportive of what he did, but I know deep down that he will be judged according to his actions by our HEavenly Father.

What i'm trying to take from this into my own life is:
1. He is our judge, and I need to remember that when I am judging others. (I could expand, but i'll just leave it at that)
2. I want to remember this instance, tho extreme, when someone(s) hurt either physically or emotionally my own boys and future offspring. I need to forgive and move forward - hopefully taking the trail as a learning opportunity. I also want my kids to grow up not seeking revenge, or holding hard feelings/grudges towards someone, etc.

Anyways, on a semi-related but different topic, this occurance has reinforced a few things for me too.
1. Tho still scared silly to venture down this road, this is just another tip over the fence for me towards homeschooling.
2. I am VERY picky about what I let my kids watch on TV/movies and this just makes me want to do so even more.

I'll explain my #2. I have been wondering how -much- of our "bad news" in the world isn't provoked by our own media and entertainment. Think about it. We watch movies where killing people is OK and sometimes FUNNY and generally accepted "for the sake of entertainment". I will even go as far to say this is another reason why I started watching the Hunger Games and turned it off! That movie took a media step into making it OK to murder children "so long as we learn something from it". It's sick and twisted and there is SO Much sick and twisted in our social media that I can't even begin to explain. Let me just stress however, I am far from perfect and I do "enjoy" alot of said entertainment - even in Harry Potter children die, and I love the HP movies, so as I said, I'm far from perfect. I just am trying to weed out the terrible, and will continue to do so as long as I can - especially for my children's sake.

Anyways, it's more a Food for Thought about how much we create amongst our own horror.. media is much more apparent in our lives and this generation, and I find the 'terrible news' seems more and more terrible than ever before also.

And i'll call it a day for today - I hear my baby waking up :) Have a wonderful day!

Pre-excitment

I hate to post in the present about something happening tomorrow, but i'm really excited about tomorrow! First of all, Michael is 'going out wth the guys' to a mma (I think that's what it's called) fight - there's about 6 of them going I do believe and I like to see him with friends :)

SEcond of all, tomorrow is Logan's first recital! He's been taking Music for Young Children and the teacher is doing a little recital with her classes - his class is singing (and ringing) Jingle Bells :) Logan is the ONLY person who actually sings aloud in his class (almost all of the time haha), so i'm very cruious to see if he'll sing in front of an audience!

That's all :) Hopefully I can take a photo!

OH! And I'm enrolling Logan in Kick-Jitsu (lol kickboxing/ju jitsu) in Januray! I'm pretty excited about it

Blown out of context

yes I realize the error in my title :) but that's okay! I was a victim of that this week. I very innocently gave an opinion on a fb post and someone read it as rude and despite the fact the person doesn't konw me in the slightest very meanly attacked me by telling me how rude I was being! I was blown away. I quickly apologized to said friend I left the comment too in case she interpretted it wrongly. I do take things personally and that is a trial I deal with - when someone attacks me PERSONALLY I am hurt.. and then as the day is going on there are just little things that are rubbing salt into the open wound. I feel like I should be apologized to but I won't recieve one because it was a stranger who did the offense. I keep having to remind myself of the talk given on Sunday about how forgiveness and repentance are often one sided and its my job to forgive and repent and if the other party doesn't then that's on their shoulders, not mine.

I just wish I could let things go quicker. I actually feel like crying - I don't like it when people think poorly on me, especially when it's very undeserving. Sure, if I had the intention of being "rude" then I would deserve it, but frankly that's not the case. -sigh- Just trying to vent and feel better...my heart just hurts -_-

Decisions, decisions, decisions!

Life is full of decisions. Some in our control, others not. I have been taught that we pray and ask Heavenly Father to help us know what to do and make good decisions, etc, but I've also been taught that Heavenly Father doesn't -make- the decisions for us, even when we want Him to! He will lead and guide us, and send us answers as we need them, but really - "what color socks shoudl I wear today?" is not a decision he is going to make for us (unless it's going to influence something/someone during the day that will mean something to us or someone). Anyways, what i'm trying to say is that sometimes we have to make our own decisions - big or petty "on our own" because we are individuals. The Lord will then -guide- us if we need help!

Decisions i'm trying to make:

1. What activities should Logan be enrolled in? Skating? Boxing/Karate? Swimming? Music? Preschool? Soccer? -_- I can't decide!
2. We've decided to attempt waiting for making baby #3 until May/June - should I just keep tracking my cycle as our form of birth control or go on the pill, etc? I can't decide!
3. Should we stay in Magrath for 2 or 3 or 4 nights after Christmas? Do I even bother packing the extra clothes for a longer trip? I can't decide!
4. Does Carter's sudden night time wake ups need more attention as to -why- he's waking so many times or is it just a 'phase'? I can't decide!
5. What should I make for dinner tonight? I can't decide!

Anyways, as i've been typing my list, and as I re-read what I typed above, I think I just need to pray that there's nothing will go wrong within each decision made, and that whatever happens is going to be just fine! Frankly, none of it is life threatening, it's just making a choice! Wish me luck :)