Feelings...

Its been interesting...I have been feeling really um, what's the word.. aggitated, angry, and frusterated. Not in general, but most specifically when Logan and Michael is around - maybe it's because I love them and can really let my feelings out when they're around? Sad.. I am going to see about talking to a counsellor... whether its late post pardom or even just the effects that Depression runs in my family, who knows but I certainly don't like the way I feel.

Education

I am very much pro education. My own education consists of High School, College Diploma, TFH training, and Bowen Therapy training (and all the extra classes I had to take to get my certificate). Do I think I am smart? Do I think I am educated? Sure do! Am I the "smartest" person out there? Heavens no! I have lots to learn as does even the "smartest" person!

Now, what about the college-university debate? I think it's silly when University students think they're education is better than a College student. It actually down right ticks me off. I would have gotten the same education had I gone to University for a Business Diploma that I did from College for double the price.

I stand on the spectrum that a person should venture into -something- after high school (and of course FINISH high school) - I think continuing your education for your own personal growth and learning is hugely important. I think other people need to remember "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". On a religious stand point we have been told as women we need to have an education. I feel like I have done so and I feel like I am well educated on those areas that bring me interest. Soemtimes I wish I could get more interested about topics that "bore" me - or even things that interest me lol...reading textbooks is not my forte. I just seem to read them!

Anyways, that's a whole other thing. :) Get an education! Feel smart within your own self.

Re-reading this blog entry I realize how much it doesn't make flowing sense lol :) oh well! my blog :)

Just let your kids play

Dear world, I have a problem with how you have made sports need to be such a competition. Why can't we just let them PLAY? It seems that there is such a push to make our kids "the best" and I see people putting them through practice after practice to compete and be the winner. Don't get me wrong, a little competition is a good thing and so is practicing, but come on! Do they need to be consumed by it in their lives? Seriously, just let them play and have fun! My favourite is when they're pushed into it and the parents say for them "oh they just love doing it!" - sure, they might, but maybe it's a little bit because they aren't given much other option?

Anyways, circumstances are of course different for every parent/child relationship, but none-the-less there is a huge push in society to be the best, and I hope my kids are able to just enjoy many different activites, and if they're really good at it, great! We'll cross that bridge when we get there. But i'm telling you we likely won't pick just one sport for them to in, but rather a variety until they're older and if they so choose to venture into something more specific then great!

Things I want my kids to try at least once:
Swimming lessons (and i say once, but I think everyone should know how to swim so my kids won't really have much of a choice here LOL they'll take lessons until they know how to swim without assistance)
Gymnastics
Soccer
Softball/Baseball
Archery
Horseback Riding
Cooking for kids (offered in Cochrane)
Piano lessons
Another instrument (i'd really like one of my boys to learn Violin)

That's all I can think of off the top of my head.

Nighttime

Unsure what to do with that baby of mine at night. Every 2 hours or LESS he is waking up and wanting me to nurse him, or if not nurse him he wants cuddles which eventually turns into a 5 minute nursing session (maybe that's because i'm so tired?). This weekend we are going to go buy the bolts for his crib (they have gone MIA since the move, was hoping they'd turn up) and I just am going to have to put him to bed and let him fuss a little because frankly he just is acting strangely. I thought it was growing pains the way he wriggles and rolls around, and I guess it could be, but for 2+ weeks, EVERY night?

Yup, i'm just complaining lol, that's the joys of having a blog :)

This past weekend in Magrath

We made a expected/unexpected trip to Magrath this past weekend to Michael's uncle's funeral. He sadly passed away from Pancreatic cancer (he lived quite a lot longer than his given expectancy which was wonderful for his family!). It was a really good weekend with family. He was a well loved man and had a large service full of support from friends and family. My father in law gave his euligy (i think they're called) which was well recieved! I know he was a loved man and will really be missed.

It got me to thinking about things. I certainly would have a hard time losing my parents. I hope I have a few more decades with them! I watched the family at the funeral and they were all doing really well (by appearance anyways), and aside from having the gospel in their lives, I think as my friend Nikki put it, they were all "running on adrenalin". I think that the week of the funeral isn't as hard as the first year would be in losing someone. Those "firsts" will be challenging I would think. Like if I lost one of my parents, the first Easter and Christmas, and the next birthdays (theirs or mine) when they call and don't actually call, and then all the firsts/concerts/events with kids that you can't call to tell them about...What a hard thing!

I have firmly committed my parents to live forever :)

Taxes

Did my taxes...didn't save, have to redo. Boo! Really straight forward taxes this year - a few medical receipts, a T4, and tithing receipts.. that's more or less it! We should be getting a few grand back and that will go straight to our debts! I'm excited - just have to sit down and redo, then submit. Sadly we can't submit our adoption receipt until we have a dependant to submit it against... so that could be a few years really I have to hold onto it!

Carter

Carter is a truly wonderous baby boy! This morning I put him downstairs with Logan and went up and had a shower. Got back down and Carter was no where to be seen - slight panic moment, then Logan's tent started to wiggle. lol, yup, he moved across the room and somehow got INTO Logan's tent! I still would love to know how he did it!

He really is a great baby tho! My only "complaint" is that I wish I could figure out how to get him to stop nursing so much at night, and I really would like to have him sleeping in his crib. (Michael lost all the screws presently, so we can't set it up yet)

Anyways, he love love loves his brother, and he is pretty laid back, and he eats EVERYTHING (so weird how truly different him and Logan are, I'm wondering what he'll be like as he grows up!).

Just love my baby :)