No baby yet. My friend Crystal however made a comment on the blog prior to this about how maybe my dates could be wrong - which got me thinking and reminded me that though I am 100% confident Logan was early, this baby was a different situation as I had only had 2 periods since my ectopic preg/surgery and frankly it's hard to say what my ovulation was like as I hadn't had -that- many periods prior to that as I had miscarried before the ectopic AND not terribly long before that just gotten periods after nursing. So yes it is a possibility that though I had 2 periods to track that the baby is not 'cooked' up to the 40 week point by Aug 28.
That being said I had a midwife appt today and this was the appt where they asked if i'd like my membranes swept, or however you call it, which if you're surprised or not, I said no to. Frankly it hurts me so badly 'down there' to go internal that I figured, why cuase all that extra emotional (and physical) turmoil when it's not a guarentee, and it only brings on labor if the baby is TRULY ready to come out! So they checked baby, everything feels and sounds right, etc. I did mention the 'could my dates be wrong' and well they looked back at my file and per my -period- dates, Aug 28th is my due date. Per my early dating u/s my due date could argubly be Sept 1 (tomorrow). So.. this week is my due week, but depending how you want to argue it determines what my due date could/should be. Confusing right? It's too bad babies come when 'they're ready' because all in all the above doesn't matter lol.
Still in the end I have been impatient, irritable and ready for this baby to be out for weeks! Lets see what the next few days bring!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
If another person...
If one more person tells me that the 'baby will come when it is time' I am going to snap (more so than I already have). Don't people think I know that? It's like when someone passes away (yes poor comparison), but frankly I don't think anyone wants to hear 'it was his/her time to go' - frankly most people probably don't want to hear anything other than your sorry for their loss! Just be sorry for me, that's all I want. -_-
signed,
a Kyla that I hate being but can't help it at this present time no matter how hard I seem to try
signed,
a Kyla that I hate being but can't help it at this present time no matter how hard I seem to try
Saturday, August 20, 2011
False Alarm
Last night (Aug 19) I had what I call a false alarm. Before you read this know that I will be quite detailed about what I was experiencing :)
First I woke up and had to pee quite substantially, which is something that I've noticed isn't common this pregnancy - usually I feel like I have to pee really badly but then it's an unsatisfying 'trickle' - well I had a very satisfying pee lol, which made me think 'hmm'. This was about midnight (also the exact time my water broke with Logan).
About 20 mins later I needed to go again! This time when I stood up out of bed I felt a VERY distinct 'drop' of the baby, followed by a very LOUD crack... my right hip that has been giving me grief this entire pregnancy totally cracked and I paused in my tracks immediatly thinking "am I broken?" but then quickly realized that it actually felt amazing! I could walk without limping/waddling and there was absolutely no pain! Well I then went and got a second very satisfying pee (lol) and then realized my tummy felt upset.
At this point i'm thinking, gee, what's going on - im sure I wouldn't be the only women to be thinking "is this the moment? is baby coming?" but I still didn't have any concrete evidence... sure i'd pee'd and sure i'd felt movement and sure I didn't feel well but that's not always labor.
Anyways, I went and laid on the couch and a friend of mine had texted me about half hour earlier in reply to a text I had sent her, so I responded and she was awake! So I had someone to chat with while I waited to see what happened. I was waffling the whole time whether or not to call the midwives and whether or not the icky tummy feeling was something just unsettled or if the crampy feeling was contractions. In the meantime I noticed that my tummy had gone completely mushy - like I mentioned earlier, I had felt a distinct drop and the baby was a good 1-2 inches lower, thus leaving that squishy skin between my chest/ribs and the top of the uterus.
I made an attempt to 'time' the pain, but there was absolutely no consistency and sometimes it would feel like a braxton hicks, sometimes a cramp, and sometimes just gurgling... Anyways, I lay awake until about 2:00am and finally decided it wasn't anything to disturb Michael about or the Midwives as nothing was escalating and nothing was changing, so in my exhaustion I finally fell back to sleep.
So of course now i'm overly hopeful that the baby is realy getting ready and will be on his/her way maybe even tonight, but my hopes and wishes have been crushed each and every time this far so i'm trying to bring my head out of the clouds and continue on. I do hope it comes tonight though for an extra reason that they are calling for +30 degrees here tomorrow, then +25 and higher all next week - I'd like to have baby before the heat hits!
PS. My latest symptom the past 3-4 nights has been something called pregnancy induced carpal tunnel - which flares up at night time for me.. Last night I actually taught Michael the carpal tunnel Bowen move (in it's most simple form, it's best used when you do a full balance, but obviously Michael isn't a Bowen Therapist so I do what I can) and it did WONDERS. My hands didn't even hurt at all last night! In fact, they didn't start hurting until about 6:30am when Logan crawled onto the couch with me and fell asleep on my arm, causing stress on the carpal tunnel nerve(s).
First I woke up and had to pee quite substantially, which is something that I've noticed isn't common this pregnancy - usually I feel like I have to pee really badly but then it's an unsatisfying 'trickle' - well I had a very satisfying pee lol, which made me think 'hmm'. This was about midnight (also the exact time my water broke with Logan).
About 20 mins later I needed to go again! This time when I stood up out of bed I felt a VERY distinct 'drop' of the baby, followed by a very LOUD crack... my right hip that has been giving me grief this entire pregnancy totally cracked and I paused in my tracks immediatly thinking "am I broken?" but then quickly realized that it actually felt amazing! I could walk without limping/waddling and there was absolutely no pain! Well I then went and got a second very satisfying pee (lol) and then realized my tummy felt upset.
At this point i'm thinking, gee, what's going on - im sure I wouldn't be the only women to be thinking "is this the moment? is baby coming?" but I still didn't have any concrete evidence... sure i'd pee'd and sure i'd felt movement and sure I didn't feel well but that's not always labor.
Anyways, I went and laid on the couch and a friend of mine had texted me about half hour earlier in reply to a text I had sent her, so I responded and she was awake! So I had someone to chat with while I waited to see what happened. I was waffling the whole time whether or not to call the midwives and whether or not the icky tummy feeling was something just unsettled or if the crampy feeling was contractions. In the meantime I noticed that my tummy had gone completely mushy - like I mentioned earlier, I had felt a distinct drop and the baby was a good 1-2 inches lower, thus leaving that squishy skin between my chest/ribs and the top of the uterus.
I made an attempt to 'time' the pain, but there was absolutely no consistency and sometimes it would feel like a braxton hicks, sometimes a cramp, and sometimes just gurgling... Anyways, I lay awake until about 2:00am and finally decided it wasn't anything to disturb Michael about or the Midwives as nothing was escalating and nothing was changing, so in my exhaustion I finally fell back to sleep.
So of course now i'm overly hopeful that the baby is realy getting ready and will be on his/her way maybe even tonight, but my hopes and wishes have been crushed each and every time this far so i'm trying to bring my head out of the clouds and continue on. I do hope it comes tonight though for an extra reason that they are calling for +30 degrees here tomorrow, then +25 and higher all next week - I'd like to have baby before the heat hits!
PS. My latest symptom the past 3-4 nights has been something called pregnancy induced carpal tunnel - which flares up at night time for me.. Last night I actually taught Michael the carpal tunnel Bowen move (in it's most simple form, it's best used when you do a full balance, but obviously Michael isn't a Bowen Therapist so I do what I can) and it did WONDERS. My hands didn't even hurt at all last night! In fact, they didn't start hurting until about 6:30am when Logan crawled onto the couch with me and fell asleep on my arm, causing stress on the carpal tunnel nerve(s).
Monday, August 15, 2011
As of today this is my official longest pregnancy
I think with Logan I was just prepared for a 40 week pregnancy and when he came early it was a pleasant surprise - now that i've had an early pregnancy I want it again but there's just as much a chance of it coming tonight as there is for it to come in 2 weeks... scary.
Oh well, i'm sure i'm supposed to 'learn something' from all of this - but i'm not prepared to figure out what that is until a later date when I can put this miserable experience behind me and move forward with my beautiful baby boy or girl whom i'm VERY excited to meet :)
Full Moon/New Moon
PS. Interesting fact: apparently more babies are born on full moons (to the point that various hospitals have extra staff on a full moon), so my wish for a baby born on the 14th (also a full moon) was really intriguing to me... after I didn't get that I decided to look Logan's birth date up and see if he was on or close to a full moon - alas he was not..two weeks prior to him (so I would have been 36 weeks pregnant) was the FM. Logan was actually born on a "New Moon". And then I looked at my due date for this current pregnancy and my due date is actually on a new moon as well - isn't that funny? I can't make any kind of hypothesis or judgement yet about that but as far as new moon's go, there is no link to more babies being born on them, however again, depending when this child graces us with his or her presence I might be able to make a statement about my body liking NM's.
Grandma's Dream
My grandmother had a dream like a year ago that she would have 6 great grand-babies this year, 4 boys and 2 girls. Well, i'm the last and final and she's to date had 3 boys and 2 girls.. so by her guess/dream I'm supposed to have another boy. Also most people who look at me figure i'm having a boy as per the way i'm carrying. There are a few more girl guesses this time around (ex: my father in law keeps saying 'she') but mostly still boys.
Baby Names
I have my official girl and boy name picked out.. I do have some 'backups' in case baby doesn't look like the names we've chosen but it just sort of all fell into place as of this week as far as names go :) so i'm excited more than ever to see what gender we are given!
Oh well, i'm sure i'm supposed to 'learn something' from all of this - but i'm not prepared to figure out what that is until a later date when I can put this miserable experience behind me and move forward with my beautiful baby boy or girl whom i'm VERY excited to meet :)
Full Moon/New Moon
PS. Interesting fact: apparently more babies are born on full moons (to the point that various hospitals have extra staff on a full moon), so my wish for a baby born on the 14th (also a full moon) was really intriguing to me... after I didn't get that I decided to look Logan's birth date up and see if he was on or close to a full moon - alas he was not..two weeks prior to him (so I would have been 36 weeks pregnant) was the FM. Logan was actually born on a "New Moon". And then I looked at my due date for this current pregnancy and my due date is actually on a new moon as well - isn't that funny? I can't make any kind of hypothesis or judgement yet about that but as far as new moon's go, there is no link to more babies being born on them, however again, depending when this child graces us with his or her presence I might be able to make a statement about my body liking NM's.
Grandma's Dream
My grandmother had a dream like a year ago that she would have 6 great grand-babies this year, 4 boys and 2 girls. Well, i'm the last and final and she's to date had 3 boys and 2 girls.. so by her guess/dream I'm supposed to have another boy. Also most people who look at me figure i'm having a boy as per the way i'm carrying. There are a few more girl guesses this time around (ex: my father in law keeps saying 'she') but mostly still boys.
Baby Names
I have my official girl and boy name picked out.. I do have some 'backups' in case baby doesn't look like the names we've chosen but it just sort of all fell into place as of this week as far as names go :) so i'm excited more than ever to see what gender we are given!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Something that just crossed my mind...
I was in much better shape when I was pregnant with Logan - I wonder what will happen during this labor/delivery because this time around I have -not- been able to work out at all due to sciatic, hip, back & 'down there' pain/discomfort. I will never be able to prove anything as far as it being linked if this 2nd delivery is worse, but it's just something that crossed my mind.
On another note - wish me luck as date #1 of choice comes into view tonight at midnight and all day tomorrow :) (the 14th as mentioned in past blogs) - officially 38 weeks tomorrow.
On another note - wish me luck as date #1 of choice comes into view tonight at midnight and all day tomorrow :) (the 14th as mentioned in past blogs) - officially 38 weeks tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Charts
We have decided to incoorporate a few charts into our daily routine in our family.
Chart #1: The House Rules
Chart #2: The Bedtime Routine
The first has been placed by the time out chair and engulfs probably 95% of the reasons that Logan is in time-out at any given time. The goal is to point out and acknowledge that whatever his behaviour at the time, it was against the rules. The theory of something concrete to look at I guess. He's a wee bit young to fully comprehend but I figure if we start now it'll grow into an understanding. There are only 4 rules: 1. Respect and Love One Another (no hitting, no biting, no pushing, no whining), 2. Have Good Manners -> Be Polite (say thank you, please, bless you, excuse me), 3. Clean up and Share (help clean up toys and share our toys with our friends), 4. Have Regular Family Time (Monday night FHE, one-on-one time with Logan per parent weekly and a date night monthly for momm and daddy). Each time he's placed in time out he is reminded of the rule, which I have written in such a way that is a positive.
The second is a list of things that we do (with a cooresponding picture) at bedtime. 1. PJs, 2. TV Show, 3. Glass of milk, 4. Brush teeth (a reminder more for me then anything), 5. Bedtime story, 6. Lay down and go to sleep. I did this specifically as an attempt to allow Logan to see (via the pictures) what is to come next in the process so eventually he'll learn that after story (which is a new thing for us to incorporate) it's time to go to bed and mommy and daddy are -not- staying there in the room with him. Anyways, whether it's because he's learned it from me or whether it's a trait he was born with, Logan is very routine based and I think this will be a positive.
The glorious thing to both these charts is it can be added to and changed. As he gets older and understands more we can maybe work in a reward system if his sleeping doesn't improve (bribary some may call it, but I call it coping lol.. what i'm referring to is something along the lines of a sticker for every night you slept without getting out of bed, and 5 stickers gets you a new toy - or something like that)
It's a new system as of today and hopefully it'll bring about the positive change i'm seeking - if it doesn't, i'll try something else, but I feel hopeful!
Chart #1: The House Rules
Chart #2: The Bedtime Routine
The first has been placed by the time out chair and engulfs probably 95% of the reasons that Logan is in time-out at any given time. The goal is to point out and acknowledge that whatever his behaviour at the time, it was against the rules. The theory of something concrete to look at I guess. He's a wee bit young to fully comprehend but I figure if we start now it'll grow into an understanding. There are only 4 rules: 1. Respect and Love One Another (no hitting, no biting, no pushing, no whining), 2. Have Good Manners -> Be Polite (say thank you, please, bless you, excuse me), 3. Clean up and Share (help clean up toys and share our toys with our friends), 4. Have Regular Family Time (Monday night FHE, one-on-one time with Logan per parent weekly and a date night monthly for momm and daddy). Each time he's placed in time out he is reminded of the rule, which I have written in such a way that is a positive.
The second is a list of things that we do (with a cooresponding picture) at bedtime. 1. PJs, 2. TV Show, 3. Glass of milk, 4. Brush teeth (a reminder more for me then anything), 5. Bedtime story, 6. Lay down and go to sleep. I did this specifically as an attempt to allow Logan to see (via the pictures) what is to come next in the process so eventually he'll learn that after story (which is a new thing for us to incorporate) it's time to go to bed and mommy and daddy are -not- staying there in the room with him. Anyways, whether it's because he's learned it from me or whether it's a trait he was born with, Logan is very routine based and I think this will be a positive.
The glorious thing to both these charts is it can be added to and changed. As he gets older and understands more we can maybe work in a reward system if his sleeping doesn't improve (bribary some may call it, but I call it coping lol.. what i'm referring to is something along the lines of a sticker for every night you slept without getting out of bed, and 5 stickers gets you a new toy - or something like that)
It's a new system as of today and hopefully it'll bring about the positive change i'm seeking - if it doesn't, i'll try something else, but I feel hopeful!
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