Baby #3

This is not an announcement. :) This is more of a "here's what's happening". I figured I'd be pregnant by now to be honest, but this time around isn't happening -as quickly- as every other pregnancy I've experienced. Whether a viable pregnancy or a miscarriage, I have -always- been pregnant in 1-2 months upon trying (6 times). This is coming on month 5 of trying and my last period I actually felt sad when it came.

So I've decided to focus more on the 10lbs I gained this summer (ridding of it), and starting tomorrow we will be renewing our Spray Lakes membership so I can start boxing/zumba/belly dancing/etc and maybe get into some better shape :)

I'm not freaking out about not being pregnant (just to clarify), but just so you know it's not something thats happened yet for us.

Big boy bed part 2

As you may (or may not have read), Carter was tranferred faily successfully to his toddler bed. That lasted 3 nights LOL. The next 3-5 nights were a huge struggle. We ended up having to put him to sleep on our bed and then transfer him. This was -not- something I wanted to continue...I didn't want another boy in our bed! He just didn't want to be in his room for whatever the reason.

So what do we do??

I decided that we should just put him into the bottom bunk (a double bed) in Logan's room. This was to be the plan eventually because we only have three rooms upstairs, and Carters room is also the 'baby room' - where baby #3 will eventually go when he/she joins our family.

It has been a HUUUGE success in more ways then one! He is going to sleep easily, without upset, and so is Logan. AND - they're BOTH sleeping all night long in their room! Logan hasn't crawled into bed with us for 4 nights now - that is truly a first for him! I almost miss him...well, I miss him -needing- us to sleep with him. That may sound weird, but he has been in our bed with us, or one of us with him in his bed his ENTIRE life (and he's almost 4 1/2) so I think it's a normal feeling right?  Not enough to ask him to come back of course lol.

Anyways, we are beyond estatic for the progress they've both made. And look forward to getting some sleep filled nights the next little while! :)

Carter in a toddler bed

Three weeks (well 4 now I suppose) Carter started acting scared of his crib. He's always been an amazing sleeper, so when this started to happen I was a bit concerned. About a week after, one night he woke up TERRIFIED. Like I went in and he was so scared he gripped me so tightly I wasn't sure what to think. After process of elination: "was it a doggie" no. "was it a kitty cat" no. "was it a ghost" no. "was it a bug" yes! ...at least that's what he told me. So I pulled his bed apart (secretly hoping I would NOT find anything) and I didn't. I had no choice but to put him back to bed. He cried and cried but his room was safe and I didn't know what to do! Anyways..15 mins later he was asleep.

Fast forward 2 weeks: Similar episode. Except I rocked him back to sleep (which I haven't done with him since he was like 6 months old). Next morning: GOLF BALL sized spider bite on his wrist! Oh my gosh!! At first glance I thought his wrist was broken! After a day of bendryl (benelyn?) whichever one, it went down in size to a "normal sized" bad spider bite. I have to tell you I felt like the worlds worst mommy but who could have known!

Needless to say he wouldn't even consider going back in his crib (and needless to say I sprayed the crap out of his bedroom LOL). So...now what right? Carter can't sleep with me, because Logan is already in my bed the last half of every night! Not enough room lol.

Then I got to thinking: 10 days prior I had purchased an amazing bedroom set for 'the baby room'...lol (I call it that because whenever #3 joins our family, that room is always to be the baby room)...it was a beautiful warddrobe with shelving up the one side and a gorgeous change table with shelving and drawers (more like a dresser). It also came with a toddler bed/crib, which I had in the garage waiting to hopefully sell. <Side story: It technically matches the bedroom set, but the crib we bought is OUR crib. Sentimental value sort of a deal lol, so I was planning to sell the matching one and keeping ours>. Anyways, I thought "gee, why don't we throw the toddler bed up here and see if he'll consider sleeping in that" what other choice did I have right?

We hauled it up and tucked it in the bedroom. First night I had to sit in the rocking chair while he fell asleep, but he has slept and napped every night/day in it since! (5 days now). I am in shock! I still have the crib set up for 'leverage' LOL "Carter...do you need to sleep in the crib??" if he's being naughty :D It's worked amazingly.

I have said before that I have been terrified about how to switch Carter from crib to bed because i've never done it before. Logan was/is a co-sleeper, so this was a first for me!

Kind of fun to have a "first" with my second :) (tho, who am I kidding, Carter is all sorts of firsts with the personality he has!)

bootcamp and whatnot

So this week I started bootcamp and I love her style and how hard she pushes, but she pushed -too- hard for a first time! It's been 4 days and I can almost walk down the stairs and up with no pain. It's a M/F bootcamp and I can take my kids, which is why I chose to sign up :) I'm excited to maybe get into some shape again. Still struggling (from past posts) so wish me luck!

Other news: not a whole lot. Been babysitting alot, and been trying to brainstorm some ways to increase my cliental regarding Bowen.

School: I have been getting marks in the 90s on all my exams (3 submitted/returned), and I just submitted my first case study which we had to do on ourselves. This case study isn't for marks, essentially I think it's something for them to brutalize for us so we know what we're doing on future ones (for marks). I look forward to the positve AND negative feedback. It was a hard one to write (yet I really enjoyed it at the same time), because we only have the first 1/4 of our class material/information, so it wasn't very well rounded per say. I'm at a bit of a standstill...we are only operating with one credit card right now and it somehow went MIA so we had to order a new one so my next round of books are on hold until we get the card number (the mia card expired since we used it last lol what are the odds)...anyways, I need to get the material ordered really soon because the school is closed for the summer.

Otherwise, not a whole lot to report. Been gardening/yard working a lot. Enjoying it too (never thought i'd see the day). I planted peas, potatoes, onion, carrots, green beans....and something else, but I can't remember what it is LOL but it's coming up!

pregnancy fail

May 9: May 1st I determined I was 4 weeks pregnant. My due date Jan 8 which made me nervous so close to christmas and new years - and my boys birthdays fall on the 25 and the 2nd as it is lol. It look me about 4-5 days to get excited about the prospect of a new years baby :-D

On my 5 week mark (yesterday may 8) i started spotting in the morning which got more and more period like as the day went on, and by evening i was bleeding heavily and by evening I was starting to feel pain. Im an experienced miscarriager and this was different this time. My abdomin was in pain! Not cramps per say but terribly achy pain. I loaded up on tylenol and forced myself to sleep (fully prepared to rush to ER if the pain turned stabbing because that was what happened with my tubal - I only have one tube left, i'm not willing to mess around with it). Also, last half of yesterday i really felt emotional - it was like my body knew what i was losing on an emotional level and was mourning despite my actually knowing on a medical front yet. After a good cry when I had time to be alone I felt alot better...not pain wise tho, lol just emotionally.

Anyways, I have an ultrasound booked next wednesday to see either if this baby made it - as I have had quite a history as far as pregnancies have gone...but i dont feel as tho this pregnancy will make it. In one breath im relieved because we werent ready to start for another few months, however at the same time in that short week I had reset my thinking and was ready for our next addition (I adapt to things fairly quickly).

Next week will tell now the official fate of baby - i wont post this until after the u/s.

May 15: I already knew the fate, especially after the blood reader on Tuesday because my uterus did not show up on the dry blood analysis, but anyways, definite miscarriage. Now i'm supposed to get some blood tests done to see if I have hormone changes which is the only way to determine a tubal - mostly precautionary measures. They want a follow up ultrasound too which i'm surprised - they didn't say there was any concerns so i'm not sure why a followup? She said there was some fluid still but I don't know what that means.

Whatever the case, i'm officially not pregnant :)

Mary Kay has saved the day

So, I have always had acne. My whole life (upon hitting teenagehood). Over the years various products have worked really well. My first good experience was Arbonne - their acne line was nice on my face and cleared generally most of my acne. Eventually tho they changed their forumla and the new formula no longer worked. Back to drug store brands at that point - which was fine because that was when I started to delve into pregnanies, and pregnancy is really wonderful on my skin :)

Anyways, I agreed to try a line my friend sells called Nucerity. It's a single product line and extremely expensive ($80 every 4-6 weeks). I didn't have immediate results - in fact the results I had were my skin was getting oily (I have never had oily skin) and all my pimples were turning into those under the skin painful kind - so yo ucouldn't -see- them but I could feel them.

Needless to say I have no doubt that it's a wonderful product, and who knows, maybe it coudl have done wonders for my skin over continued use of it, but I couldn't sustain that horendous price (and I was not going to try and sell it in order to keep using it 'for free')

After stopping using the line my face EXPLODED. It was AWFUL...the past 4 weeks-ish I have felt like a pimply 16 year old and have been ultra miserable because I already struggle with my outter image. Finally I sought help and my friend sells Mary Kay. I was skeptical as i've used MK products in the past with no success - but like Arbonne, formulas change, and I wasn't using -all- the products, etc.

Within TWO days I've noticed significant improvment. My face is already healing, and I think it might even start to clear! I'm excited that it might be a line that works for me.

my garden and yard

Where do you start?? Holy smokes, yard work is so fun but so hard at the same time!

Here's my to-do list:
1. Areate
2. Fertilize
3. Patch grass (figure out what grass I have first of course)
4. Garden: dig out all the topsoil and replace with new healthy soil (and thus fertilizer/sand/etc)....and of course plant garden!
5. Flower beds: dig out and transplant patio plants & trim back bushes/plants in side beds
6. Cut down or dig out big annoying evergreen tree - would like to replace with a big leafy tree :)
7. Figure out how to pull out big stumps.
8. Build treeless fort for boys: thus find a posthole digger as i've talked with a variety of builders and they say I have to build 4 feet down for a strong foundation (ugh)...I could expand this point but i'll leave it at that
9. Debating building "proper" steps down the side of my house this year

Most everything on this list will happen this year (maybe not #3, #6 & #9) - hoping.

My garden: I attended a Relief Society class on gardening. Last year I just planted my garden to see how it would turn out - didn't look at the soil too closely, etc, just planted. It was a very poor crop. After this class I learned alot of things. One thing that I learned was that you need something like 6-12" (depending on the plants) of good soil for the roots to grow into. I decided to dig down in my raised beds (that were here before we moved in), and I only got about 3-4" down before hitting clay in certain areas! So I've spent a few hours digging out these boxes...i'm almost done but I ran out of space to pile up the dirt. I need a truck to haul some away then I can finish.

Side note: i'm glad I started this now so that I will be done in time to plant end of May.

Anyways, some of the beds hit clay shallower while some hit deeper. Now I'm going to have to go and buy probably the equivalant to 20-30 bags of topsoil & fert/sand/etc....I'm going to go to the landscape places and see if they sell it in "bulk". I hate the idea of -buying- dirt. Doesn't that just sound so dumb?? Oh well...I'll have a killer garden by the time i'm done and I shouldn't have to do this every year!

I'm going to plant peas, beans, carrots, potatos, 2 tomato plants, maybe some onions and then gonna pot some strawberries for fun. Hoping to also add 1-3 perennials to my flower beds - the dream I have for my beds are far too much (financially) for one year, so the grass and garden are getting my attention in that regard.

If you had told my preteen/teen self that i'd one day like gardening - I'd have told you you were crazy :)